It's funny, but as I get older people (mostly older women) find it hard to believe that I've never been married, or that I don't have any kids. AND...when I tell them that I'm not dating anyone serious, they practically offer their condolences. It's like I told them that I have Cancer, or something. I'M NOT SICK....just single.

Don't get me wrong....I'm kinda bummed out about being single, but I'm not gonna just jump into relationships with the first chick who thinks I'm cute. And...I'm not gonna date random chicks just because I can.

I only bring this up because this happened to me yesterday. As I passed to go get my mail, the ladies in the office formed a little pow wow, to determine what my "problem" is. We joked about it...and the conversation got pretty entertaining....but as I was heading back to my classroom, I couldn't help but reminisces over recently failed relationships. What happened? Where did they go wrong? Is it me? When is it gonna happen for me?

Before the comments come rolling in, let me say I'M NOT DEPRESSED! Any of my students and friends would tell you that I'm normally a pretty laid back and happy individual. I've played the role of "class clown" since puberty. But sometimes I can't help but be envious of those who've found LOVE . You've seen them: The couple shopping together at the supermarket....walking thru the mall with their pinkies intertwined.....jogging together.....or (my favorite) working out together at the gym.

Needless to say....all of these thoughts directed my attention to Bethany again. Who I thought was pretty close to perfect, except for one little thing. She liked me, but I didn't have what she REALLY wanted in a man. What she wanted? .... I don't know. But clearly I wasn't keeping her satisfied.

ANYWAY....  The main reason for the post this morning??  I dreamt about her last night....& in the dream she wanted to give it another try.  HOW CRAZY IS THIS???? 

I promise that I'm trying to distract myself with enough activity to forget about her....but every now and then, there's this rush of fond memories.

Blah Blah Blah...fish in the sea...& Time heals blah blah blah.. I KNOW THIS CRAP.

But I know some of you have been in the same position before. I'm NOT CRAZY DAMMIT!!!!    Am i?? 

So... my curiosity was peaked by the personality test mentioned on Shaynie's recent post. I had to check it out for myself. It turned out just how I expected; I'm a pretty average joe:

My temperament is: GUARDIAN (their description is pretty "dead-on"....read below)

Guardians can have a lot of fun with their friends, but they are quite serious about their duties and responsibilities. Guardians take pride in being dependable and trustworthy; if there's a job to be done, they can be counted on to put their shoulder to the wheel. Guardians also believe in law and order, and sometimes worry that respect for authority, even a fundamental sense of right and wrong, is being lost. Perhaps this is why Guardians honor customs and traditions so strongly--they are familiar patterns that help bring stability to our modern, fast-paced world.

Practical and down-to-earth, Guardians believe in following the rules and cooperating with others. They are not very comfortable winging it or blazing new trails; working steadily within the system is the Guardian way, for in the long run loyalty, discipline, and teamwork get the job done right. Guardians are meticulous about schedules and have a sharp eye for proper procedures. They are cautious about change, even though they know that change can be healthy for an institution. Better to go slowly, they say, and look before you leap.

Guardians make up as much as 40 to 45 percent of the population.

The Four types of Guardians are:

Supervisors // Protectors // Inspectors // & Providers

Check the link for yourself:

http://www.advisorteam.com/temperament_sorter/register.asp?partid=1

Today's Workout: Morning run (b/w 8-9 miles), Lifting (Shoulder day), then 11am Yoga class.

Lately my asthma has really been fucking with me...but today I was feeling pretty good. Only two other people showed up for the group run this morning, but it was actually pretty cool. I usually don't talk much during longer runs, but these folks (including the guy that worked at the store hosting the run) were actually fun to talk to. For some people it's politics, for other's it's their children.....but ME??  I could sit around (or run) and talk to people about running, race experiences, and working out for hours.  I know...I'm a wierdo!

   .....Had a chance to talk to KK on the phone, today. It's the first time we've spoke since we came back from Mexico last weekend. It's kinda sad watching her go through the SAME EXACT thing that I went through with Bethany. She and Dave are finally done....but she misses him like crazy. Now she's going through the process of trying to fill her time with other guys, just to take her mind off him. She's a great girl ...so I'm sure she'll have no problem finding someone who'll treat her right. She's on match.com, so you fellas better get at her before it's too late!

Why haven't we ever hooked up???  Trust me I used to hit on her all the time....but she's not attracted to black guys.   She's still cool though.

Oh well... Tomorrow starts a new week. It should be interesting since, I have a TON of grading that still needs to get done....and grades are due by next Tuesday. I'm this close   to just saying "Fuckit" and give everybody an "A". 

Oh yeah-- For anybody that knows who Busta Rymes is....he got arrested on Thursday of last week, in NYC for driving with a suspended license.  How do I know??  It was my sister who pulled him over & brought him in.  How crazy is that?!?  Sorry Bus-a-bus.. she was just doing her job.

So.....I know it's been awhile since I posted, BUT....

I've been trying to make some important life-adjustments:

Last week, my friend KK & I went down to Rocky Point in Mexico (Puerto Peñasco). It was just a 2-day trip, but it was just what I needed! We were able to do a lot of venting to each other, on our recently failed relationships. Something about hanging out around a beach just puts things in a different perspective.  

Anyway....what else has been going on?

The MRI I had on my knee turned up NOTHING serious. Hopefully, the time off I've taken from running has helped heal the minor scarring. I say "minor" scarring, but trust me ...during the marathon the pain was MAJOR!!!

I finally put in my two-week notice at UPS!!!  Thank GOD!!! Last week I was hired as an after-school tutor at one of the local Sylvan Learning Centers. This gig should definitely free up some more time for training during the weekdays. Call me crazy, but after being chewed-up and spit out by the marathon in January... the next time Bethany sees me at a race, I want to be in TOP FORM!!!

  Like this guy!!!

I still run into BB at the gym, and things are still cool. It looks like we'll eventually go out running again, but who knows if she's open to anything else. At this point I kinda......don't care. She's a great girl, cute as hell, but something tells me that I'd be wasting my time.

Food for thought:  How is it that neither I nor my three sisters (ages 28 -34) have ever been married, had kids, or been in a relationship longer than 6 months? I used to blame my failed relationships on things like "bad timing" or "incompatibility", but I'm beginning to think that the issue is a bit deeper.

My goals for March:

Get back into "training mode"

Take my Defensive Driving course (speeding ticket)

Start saving some cash for the Vegas trip in May!!

Investigate options & create a plan to finish my Master's

So Saturday morning went as planned...                                                             

BB & I went on our run. The weather was actually perfect for a morning jog. We only went four miles, but she was pretty stoked about the whole thing, since she hasn't run outside in a long time.

The conversation flowed nicely, but no immediate sparks. But she still seemed open.

We both went back to the gym to lift for a little bit. We weren't working out "together" but we'd stop and chit-chat occasionally. So I went for it... and asked her to dinner later that evening. Unfortunately, she turned me down, using homework as an excuse.  I'm sure I'll try to ask her out again, but honestly I don't really care either way.

This weekend I came to the conclusion, that I'm just trying to find a "replacement" for Bethany.

Check this out....

I even invited some random girl back to my place (on Sunday).... we were fooling around....she told me that she needed to "get some".

I didn't even want to do it.....or should I say......my "body" wouldn't let me do it.  I'm pretty sure I'm just looking for a quick fix, for this void that Bethany has left.

I know ... I know.... time heals all wounds. But waiting for that time to pass, definitely SUCKS!!  

My hope is-- once this Wednesday passes... and I get back from spending the 3-day weekend in Mexico... I'm gonna refocus back to my training schedule & get ready to set some new PR's (personal records) this year.

BTW-SS aka Shaynie aka Genesis... what's up with those new pics???  You're cute & all....but I'm pretty sure you'd be able to hold on to the number one spot without getting all hot & steamy.  j/k

Loved your posting on "Love Love Love Love...."

Geezuuusss  Crighsss!!!

Where do I start? Between the kids at school & UPS & the gym....this week has been pretty fu##ing busy... 

So, I ended up sending that card to Bethany (see earlier post, titled: "Dammit I'm so weak")....  no response yet. But then again I didn't expect one. I wanted one.....but like I said....didn't expect one.

I finally got the MRI on my knee, but I have to wait until next week to hear from the doctor. I'm still running on it though, so it's no biggie.

I've only seen Erson, at school once since our date.... things seem cool. But as I mentioned in my last post, I'm pretty sure there's no future there.

That's cool though, I've already got my eyes on another target. Let's call her BB (for those cute baby blues). I met BB at the gym...and we're supposed to be meeting up for a run on Saturday morning. Let's see if I can turn this run into a dinner & movie. 

A big shout out to all my ShoutPost friends!!!    BTW-what's the deal with the "Hot Blogs" rankings??  You step away for a couple of days, and POOF!!  You drop down like 20 places?!?  These administrators are RUTHLESS!!!   jk

So I just got home from dinner with Erson. Remember this is the girl that I work with...who I finally asked out...about two weeks ago.

We went to one of those Asian spots where they cook the food in front of you... We sat with this group of seven other people who were getting wasted on Saki bombers... the chef was tossing shrimp in our mouths.... it was pretty entertaining.  BUT sadly....I don't think there were any sparks.

We talked a lot about other teachers at school... we talked about her ex-boyfriends... but you know how it is....when you're looking at someone who just isn't attracted to you???

She didn't look disgusted....but she was looking at me like I was just another guy "friend". 

Hey, what can I say?  I tried!!  

Who knows.... maybe at a happy hour, sometime down the line,  I might catch her drunk enough for a little impromptu make-out session... 

Other than that....  I'm pretty sure there's nothing there.

Back to the drawing board....