Anyone that has quit smoking (or any other crazy habit) will be able to relate to this, for sure.

I quit smoking about 5 years ago. It was probably the toughest thing I've ever done. As months went on....smoke -free..... I wouldn't feel the cravings much, at all. But sometimes, days would hit where there was an overflow of desire to take just One drag. One hit. Just a little puff....

Sometimes you were able to fight it...other times you just gave in.

That's what happened to me this weekend. But instead of smoke...it was Bethany that I was missing once again. Tonight while I was grocery shopping, I broke down and picked up a card to send to her for Valentine's Day. It's not an "I LOVE YOU" card....it's just one of those, "I'm still thinking of you" cards.  Am I retarded, or what?

Is it crazy to still miss her? It was just 2 & half weeks ago, since I saw her blow by me in the marathon.... we didn't speak, but she had to have felt something.....right? She's not a robot, ya know!!!

Anyway... I don't know if I'm gonna send it, yet. I know she's not gonna call me or anything, but it wouldn't hurt, to show her that she still means something to me... would it??

Who knows....maybe this craving will pass soon.